It is my great pleasure to have Dineen Miller write for us again. Dineen was one of the first readers, prayer parters and guest writers here. She is my biggest encourager. I love her deeply. This weekend we met face-to-face for the first time at the Deeper Still Conference in San Francisco.
Now, without further ado... Dineen Miller
The Storm That Waits
By Dineen A. Miller
A depression threatened like a storm waiting offshore to pound a defenseless city. I wept. I moaned. My struggles had become heart wrenching for several weeks. Yet in the midst of these fierce winds, I wondered why. I knew I needed an attitude adjustment, at the very least, but I still didn’t understand the source of my discord.
God had already warned me the next year would be difficult, in terms of being unequally yoked, and I sensed the days counting down to the final outcome of my husband’s transformation. I’ve known what would be coming for six years, and God recently said it was time to prepare. I was ready.
Or so I thought.
As I sat in church a few Sundays ago, the still soft voice of God broke through the storm clouds. He reminded me that it was He who put me on this path. I agreed. Then He said I had a choice. (He’s ever so good with giving choices, isn’t He?) I could continue to go as I had been, kicking and screaming, or I could go obediently and receive His blessing.
I realized then that I’d never chosen to do what God had asked me. I’d let the storm waves take my faith and my trust in every direction except where He wanted me to go. And I did have a choice: I could either go against the flow of His will, or put God back in control so we could sail in peace-filled, but not still, waters. Amazing how quickly the light of God’s truth can dissipate the darkness.
My boat still rocks quite a bit at times. That’s usually an indicator that I need another direction (or attitude) adjustment. The year ahead promises some of the roughest waters to come, but I’m slowly learning not to worry about what’s ahead.
And leave the destination to God.